The idea of discipline used to trigger rebellion in me. And quite honestly, still does from time to time in various areas of my life. Much of this rebellion stemmed from growing up in a strict household, where discipline (at least in the traditional sense of the word) was paramount. This rebellion continued until one day, I allowed myself to perceive the idea of discipline in a fresh light. Instead of viewing discipline as something that created rigidity and limits I learned to view it as a guiding light that led to growth and expansion.
I was able to deeply dive deeper into my relationship to discipline this past week when I went on a retreat in Ojai. At the retreat, our wise teacher, Sukhdev Jackson, described discipline as “being a disciple to one’s truth.” For me, that was a wow. It landed. For the first time in awhile, I thought to myself, if that’s what discipline means, I can commit to that.
Because Kundalini yoga and Mantra were the focus of the retreat, the first opportunity I had to practice discipline was in recommitting to my sadhana - a daily spiritual practice. When I’ve committed to the discipline of sadhana in the past, my world expanded, extraordinary alignment occurred, and my life seemed to accelerate at such a significant pace it would sometimes cause me to give up the discipline of sadhana because it felt overwhelming. And honestly, getting up super early to practice the sadhana was hard, and I wanted to sleep in! But now, I’m ready. I’m ready to re-commit to this transformative type of discipline that helps me flow into a space of peace, Divine Grace, and infinite possibility.
As I immerse into my sadhana practice, I’ve been feeling the truth in the saying “there is nothing more powerful than a woman’s prayer" by Yogi Bhajan. Sadhana initiates my daily prayer that has the power to liberate me and others from perceived limitations, and the draining forces of anxiety and doubt. I feel awakened after this practice. And, as my inner world is transformed by sadhana my outer world shifts, revealing jewels I didn’t even know I was looking for.
Another way discipline is showing up in my life is through making the choice to give up wine/alcohol – at least for now. When I partake in this once festive + social experience, I feel cloudy and less connected to the Divine. I’m ready for ultimate clarity + I feel called more than ever to take ownership for my path. This is going to be a day-by-day practice in discipline, and to fortify this commitment I’m going to draw on a tool I use when doing a cleanse, which is setting an intention around the commitment. My intention is that by stepping away from alcohol, I will fully align with my highest Self and able to own my wisdom, my gifts and the truth of who I really am.
When I reach that “witching hour” (usually sometime between 6pm and 8pm especially with a small child), when I’m really feeling the pull to pour a glass, I’m going to return to my intention and my power allowing it to energize my discipline. Part of my intention is also going to include acknowledging the emotions that arise and allowing myself to feel the feelings that I often mask with that glass of wine. Because, when I mask the unpleasant emotions, I’m often masking the joyful ones as well. It is simply the way that it works.
I’m going to allow myself to experience it all in service to intimately connecting with myself, loving myself and receiving feedback from the divine. From this clear place, I will be guided in how to show up and fully express my gifts. I know this from exquisite past experience. The 'veil lifts' and the richness of the journey accelerates. Now is the time.
According to Yogi Bhajan, there are five things we need to do each day to support the path of awakening + evolving the soul.
All of these are generally in my day to day. However, to embody all of them daily from a deeply intentional and devoted heart, feels quite timely for me.
I’m also, really feeling the importance of this work as we move into eclipse season – a time when life can be shaken up in unexpected and challenging ways. Discipline to engage in the practices above creates a clean channel for me as I move through this transformative time period. If I’m not in my power during this time, I could totally get knocked down. If I’m not in my power - if I’m not fully aware and connected, with my eyes wide open - I might feel like a victim, instead of a vessel for life’s victories.
That being said, if you haven't registered already, join us for the "Virtual Speaker Series" TONIGHT, Wednesday, July 11 at 6 pm pst featuring Danielle Beinstein. The topic is "Navigating Eclipse Season". She will elaborate upon the three upcoming eclipses, how to harness the energy, and tools for transformation. Eclipse season is real. Join us to move through it with grace. Confirm your spot here.
May we all experience an intimate connection with discipline as it supports us on this magnificent journey!
“A person can hope all she likes to become a light, but at some point she has to step forward and be a light." -Robert Holden
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